The Dawn of A New Era

December 31 huh...Wow,just freaking wow.I just realized this year is already ending..just like that.I really hate this.I’ve always hated it when a year ends.I don’t really know why.I guess it’s because I’m not ready to enter a new year yet.I still want to revel in this year’s memories,before making new ones in the year to come.Tis year’s been a blast.No,that does not suffice to describe it.This has been one of the best,if not THE best,years of my life and I’m not kidding.It’s no exaggeration.I’d murder,maim and pillage to get another year like this,LOL.The memories of 2007 will forever be engraved in my heart,never to be lost to the tides of time.And it’s probably not just me,I’m sure a hell lot of us has thought the same.And now,before this year ends,I shall give my tribute to this beautiful year of 2007.

Tribute to 2007

A year comes,a year goes.We all see it.It may just be moving from one month to another,but it’s not as superficial as that.We all feel it.As that clock hand ticks towards a new day,a new year,the memories of the current year playback in our mind,just like a movie,telling a story.The happiness we indulged in,the sadness we met,the pain we had to endure,the disappointment from not getting our expectations met,We all fell,we all rised.In the end,it really does matter.All these feelings we have experienced,it’s just another part of life that everyone has to go through.No matter how insignificant,how trivial it seems,you get stronger,even if a little.You get stronger not just as a person,but as an entity in this ever so vast and challenging planet.You get the strength to carry on,and bring new miracles into your life.

As we move on,we meet new people,good and bad.We look into their eyes,we exchange greetings,maybe even contempt,but after a while,some may realize,every one of us is different,but the same.We may have different colors,different accents,different goals in life,but the one thing that is the same even if the sky were to fall,or World War III were to break out,is that we are all seeking for answers.The answers to our questions.
“You are always searching for answers to your questions.That is because you believe they mean something to you.
As long as you keep desiring answers,your life will remain a meaningful one.You are constantly renewing yourself by thinking and feeling things.” - Gaeus
I may have gotten that quote from a game,but it holds it’s meaning all the same.(There are actually some amazing quotes in games,rofl.)As long as you keep striving to find the answers,the strength to move on will be there.

There’s a saying that goes “true friends are like diamonds,precious and rare,”.What kind of bullshit is that…
No matter how rare or precious,you can still place a price on it.Diamonds get sold everyday don’t they? >_>
True friends are priceless,more priceless than the Mona Lisa painting,more priceless than a view of the sunset glistening in the background. .Friends are what help us get through this life,the rope that keeps us from falling off that ledge.
. I really can’t imagine a life alone,well I can actually...a life where you have to bear all the pain and burden only on your own two shoulders.No one to share that lovely ice cream with,no one to listen to you gripe,no one to listen to you talk about that hot guy or girl you saw today.As the year passes,we meet new friends,people that were once strangers.Some of them we least expect to be friends with.Life has a funny way of doing things,you never know who you’re gonna meet in life.People that were once enemies,may become your true friends.Strangers that you once thought were geeky and lame becoming your friends.It’s always fun to meet new people,to see the different sides of life,to share our experiences.And guess what,I just realized this recently,lol.

Each year in our life,is like a chapter in a story book,each page a day in our life.And you are the author that controls the pen.As the days,weeks and months go by,the pages start filling up.It fills up with your experiences,your emotions,your…memories.Each page holds a new surprise,it’s like reading a good thriller novel.We keep writing and writing,and one day,when it is complete,maybe we could read it once again,just because we can.

As the year of 2007 ends,a new chapter in our life begins to unfold.We have to keep writing until the end,till the last word,the last letter.(You don’t wanna be called a quitter do ya?)The name of the book?I dunno,you’re the one deciding.
Just keep writing…and flipping the pages and hope…for a happy ending =).

- End of Tribute


Well,that’s it.Hope you guys liked it and that it made sense and doesn't sound too cheesy >_>.I’m gonna miss 2007 a lot,but…to attain something new,is to let go of the old.So I’m gonna put my head up high,and enter a new year,with a wish that it will be as great,if not better than the year before.So before it ends,I would just like to say…

GOODBYE 2007,THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES AND…….
HELLOOOO 2008!

Huh?What?Christmas is here?

Well,it's that time of the year again.And while everyone is wishing everyone else a merry christmas and exchanging presents,I can't help but wonder....just what is Christmas really about?Some say it's to spend time with family and relatives,others say it's the about joy of giving,while there are those that enjoy Christmas just for the presents,heh.As for me?I have no idea.I don't know why,but every year,whenever Christmas comes,I just feel like it's any other day.I can't seem to get into the spirit of it.I feel like there's something missing.Oh well...more answers for me to seek.

Well,that's about it.Too lazy to write more >_>.
Was supposed to post this yesterday,but...well,yeah.

Merry Belated Christmas!!!!!!!









I know it's not that great,but hey,at least I tried.And don't mind the rubbed parts,I made mistakes and drew too hard.

And I seriously have got to start on the LLC review thing.I still miss camp,sigh.
Oh and,good luck to the Form 3's,haha.Don't worry too much about the PMR results.It's not like your whole life depends on it.Oddly enough,I can't remember what I felt the day before PMR results came out nor on the day itself,LOL.Man,i'm weird.
I feel like PMR was made just to make students go crazy.

Well,bye.

Quote: PMR sucks.

Part 2? Nah,not yet.

I said I'll write my review in the next post,but...I'm a freaking procrastinator,so...D: .I'm gonna write a kick ass long review,so don't worry.I'll describe the camp in the most omgwtfbbq way possible,I hope.Until now,I still miss it =/.

Anyway,did some blog stalking today.It's really amazing how much you can know someone from their blog.Maybe not everything,but it's still amazing.Everything you didn't know about them.I once didn't give a damn about blogs.Now i'm regretting that decision =/.Wished I found the wonders of blogs sooner.Regrets seem to be a part of my life,sigh.

I found this song today,and it's pretty awesome.I love it's lyrics.

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven




Heh,protecting someone...just how far would you go?I know I would break my limits,cause i'm a sucker for protecting things xD.I like to be the big meat shield,haha.

Oh and,that's not the original video.The original was kinda boring,so I put in a Final Fantasy VII Advent Children one.God,that movie rocked so hard.Even if you're not a fan of the FF series,you should watch it.Plus,Tifa is effing hot.Seriously.


Oh,and I'm also addicted to that song the two Taman Petaling girls sang.That was so cute xD.
It's called Shining Friends by 2r.

Little faith brightens a rainy day
Life is difficult; you can't go away
Don't hide yourselve in the corner
You have my place to stay

Sorrow is gonna say goodbye
Opens up you'll see the happy sunshine
Keep going on with your dream
Chasing tomorrow's sunrise
The spirit can never die

Sun will shine, my friend
Won't let you cry, my dear
Seeing you shed a tear
Make my world disappear
You'll never be alone in darkness

See my smile, my friend
We are with you, holding hands
You have got to believe, you are my destiny
We're meant to be your friends
That's what a friend should be



So...cherish your friends and stuff...yeah.It's what they always tell you,but most of us still take it for granted anyway,sigh.Human nature sucks sometimes.I could go on about human nature,but,I'd just keep going on and on connecting one thing to another lol,xD.So,i'll keep that for another post.I wish I could talk this much in real life.I'm always the quiet guy that doesn't stand out much =/.

Well,time to end this post.But first,a little picture I drew some time ago.Hope you guys like it.And comments are always nice.Might draw another soon.I'm still trying to draw faces of.
 people I meet in life,but it's really hard >< .Anyone wanna be my model? xD.
For free of course...cause im kedekut like that.I'm still an amateur at drawing and not good at shading...sigh.But I still love,love,love drawing.I dunno why,but I LOVE drawings and words.I'm lazy at doing it though =/.Well,tata.





If you meet a dead end,you don't take a detour...you bust it up with your hands. 8D
-Another lame quote by me.

Tai Kor

LLC 2007 baby.(part 1)

Phew,just returned from LEO Leadership Camp 2007.I don't think it's possible to describe the camp in words.But if i did try,I'd have to say it was omg f*cking awesome.Yeah,I almost cursed in my blog there.Shows how much it rocked.Seriously though,even saying it is awesome is an understatement.I think it has changed my view on life quite a bit.It made me stronger,even if it only is a little bit.It was a life changing experience to summarise it.Even now,while writing this post,I wish I were still over there,hanging out with everyone,acting crazy and without a care in the world.I'm feeling really emo right now...I miss everyone there.Those 6 days and 5 nights spent together...how I wish it would've lasted longer.It went by just like that,like pooooof.I know everything has to end eventually but that sucks,srsly.I kinda feel empty right now for some reason now that the camp is over.I guess it's because I've already gotten used to the lifestyle of the camp,so I don't really know what to do now.Reality is sinking back in,and I have to think about what to do next.Sighhhh,this sucks.

I met a lot of new people from other schools at the camp.We had so many things to do,and everyday we would be as tired as hell,but we would stay up late and go crazy anyway.

I'm gonna write my opinions and feelings on the camp in the next post.Kinda feeling tired right now.I stayed up till like 5 a.m. since it was the last night.I still had 5 hours of sleep,but I dunno why i'm still tired.Till the next post then.

Tai Ko (Zu Wen)

Hmm....what the hell,I don't know...insert your own title here.

Been a while since i last updated.One whole month,zomg.Ah well...not like I had anything to blog about.Another slow paced month...nothing much happenin'..sigh.Boring,boring.
Anyway...i recently found this manga/comic and it has got me hooked onto it for the past 5 days?Reading 25 volumes in 5 days..man,i'm good.>_> +cough+nolife+cough+
The name of this manga is the epidemic we call GTO,abbrevation for..Great Teacher Onizuka.Lawl.
This is like one of the g'damnned best manga i've ever read so far,probably even the best.
It has situations that pretty much every one of us can relate to as students and also as human beings.
It's basically about this guy named Onizuka,an ex-gang leader who after witnessing a school girl ditching him for her current "boyfriend",a balding,old man which is her teacher,decides to become a teacher himself.
He does things in an unorthodox manner,not like how teachers do it normally.Using violence to correct his students,not playing by the rules,etc..and not mention,he has an IQ of 50.The manga is about his unique experiences with the students and teachers of the academy he is teaching at on his quest to become the greatest teacher in Japan,lawl.It's definitely a must-read.Warning though...it has quite an amount of mature content.Nothing to be worried about though...pretty sure anyone can handle it.Unless you're some naive,innocent child.(No offense intended)
This manga also teaches a lot about living your life.
Taught me that I should always solve my own problems and not blame it on the nearest person i can grab onto.To take responsibility for everything and not chicken your ass out of it.
It touches on a lot of aspects of life that most of us probably take for granted.Definite must read for character building LOL.Oh and also..it's realllly hilarious,you won't be able to stop laughing.Srsly.

After finishing the manga,it made me think a lot...think about the things in life that I took for granted.
It made me question the so-called "education system" we have today.One of the quote from the manga,
"All teachers do are stuff us with rubbish from the textbook,".Or something along that line,too lazy to look for it.
Anyways..it's kinda true..most teachers nowadays,they just feed us with whatever they can find in the textbook or workbook or whatever.What's the point of that?Any two-bit moron can read from the book and comprehend if they wanted to.
Why bother teaching us things we can learn ourselves?Take history for example...most teachers just rant on about things you can read yourself from the book.Dude..why bother then?Then again..this is my opinion,and i'm probably wrong somewhere,but i'm too much of an ass to bother checking.
Teachers shouldn't just feed us with information on how to score on tests,expecting us to succeed like that.They gotta teach students life lessons that they'll be able to use in this ever cruel world.It's getting harder and harder to survive these days..what with all the corruption,power hunger,lies,assholes...grumble grumble.Anyway,that's another story.

This manga actually gave me the inspiration to become a teacher one day...probably sounds foolish huh?Hahaha.....Me?A teacher?...Hahaha,that's funny.Maybe when the moon comes crashing down onto the earth and Mars rams into Pluto.Then again..that could happen one day..ahahaha.Though..if I ever become a teacher..i'll be giving lessons on life and trying to help them(the students)...and not just stuff them with shit they can learn themselves.Dunno if i'll be cut out for it though.Seeing the amount of troubled kids today....I can't imagine what's gonna happen in 10 years.Just another foolish dream..but hey,it's a dream nonetheless.Better than having none.
I thought about being a teacher once..though I was afraid.I was afraid that I might lose my passion to teach as years go by...Maybe like..after 10 years,i'll give up on my students,and not care about them anymore.Sigh..but,nothing ventured,nothing gained.Guess I gotta take a risk once in a while.Been playing it safe all this while..getting bored of it.Hee hee.
Being teacher does have its perks. Like having long ass holidays,and having fun with the students.How many jobs are there where you can actually have fun?It's all about the fun in life baby.Oh..and also..you get to stare at all the hot chicks in the school all you want,damnn,whatta deal. ..What?Why are you staring at me like that?I am still a guy no?I still have a right to stare at hot high school chicks even at the age of 30! (though i'll seem like a paedophile,but who cares?>_>)
AHEM...ANYWAYS,
teaching looks like a really fun and worthwhile profession..though I might be wrong.Probably not all that I expect and not as great as I thought it would be,but still...worth a shot...heh.Nothing beats seeing the youth and reminscing about your school days at the age of 50 while sipping tea and watching the skirts...err clouds that pass by. ...Man,I sound like an old man already.

Heh,well look out,you might be looking at the next teacher at a highly respectable school raking in the dough being flanked by cute high schoolers. ...What?Can't a guy fantasize once in a while?And make sure you guys send your children to me...i'll make sure to take "good" care of them,hee hee.No,i'm not a damn paedophile..at least I don't think I am.Damn,I need to visit a kindergarten to make sure.

Anyway,that's about it for now......too lazy to think of anything else.

Baibai.

"When life gives you lemon,you make lemon juice.When life gives you shit.....you flush it down the damned toilet,you sicko,what else?" - Another lame quote by yours truly.

.................What?

Bleh,guess i'm resorting to this to temporarily take my boredom away.I'm soooooooooooo boreeeed.Like srsly....if i don't find something to occupy my time by the time the exams are over,i'm probably gonna climb up KLCC and jump down or something. ...Hmm,that's not a bad idea....

......Anyway,I can't seem to study this year...well not like I could every other year,but....it's different this time...dunno how,it just is.It's like....I don't feel there's no purpose in taking these exams....even if I get 100 for everything...it just seems so pointless,sigh...
I guess it'll help in getting scholarships and what not,but still...i dunno...don't know how to describe it,lawl.Anyone feel the same as I do? I hope i'm not the only one.... >_>
Maybe it's because...I don't have a goal of any sort in life...so like,even if I got a scholarship to Harvard,it would be pointless I guess.Haaaaah,why's it so hard being a teenager.I miss my kindergarten days where all we had to worry about was who to annoy and bother the hell out of.Man,those were the days.
Oh well....this is the reality that I have to face,sigh.

Ah well...I guess i'm gonna go "try" to study physics
Try as in...falling asleep or getting distracted by somethinge else,lawl.
I'm probably not gonna do as well as I did in my mid-year exams...not that I did any good back then either LOL.Ahhhh,I need to get serious next year.
+Tries to imagine me being serious+
.......Not gonna happen.
Although,when I get serious...it's pretty scary...I think,I dunno.Can't remember the last time I was serious about something.Laid-back or lazy..you make the choice.

Well,that's about it I think.

Ja matta,

Your indecisive lazy giant.

The world before you.

Hey there,sorry I haven't posted in such a long time.Just didn't have the inspiration lately.Heh.But today,it just came to me like that.It's kinda funny,really.

Well,I don't really know how it happened,but I got hooked onto reading mangas online and watching anime too,lol >_>.I'm such a nerd,ne ka?But I dunno,these kind of things attract me.How these mangakas can portray the innocence and beauty of life like that.It's just...well,I dunno,it's indescribable with words.If only I could turn my feelings into a concrete form.It just touches a special spot in me ya know?

Call me emo or a nerd,doesn't really matter.Hell,i'm actually proud to be a nerd sometimes.
There's nothing to be ashamed of.You are who you are.Nothing's gonna change that,that's what I've realized these past two days.I don't really know why,but these past two days,I've come to realize a lot of things.I've learned to not take granted anything in life anymore,and every second of our life is precious.

In the past,everytime I do something wrong,I used to hate myself for being so useless and clumsy.I always hated myself for being so weak.

But now...I'm determined to try a new outlook on this.Instead of sulking about how weak I am.....I'm gonna just be determined to get even stronger and better,so I'll never have to regret doing the same mistake ever again.

Kinda funny what you can learn from the simplest of things.It's just so.....amazing.Life is just so......
Sigh...

The things that happen in the manga.New relationships are formed,they cry together,they laugh together.....the things they do.They are only highschool kids,like me,but I envy them.Their lives are soooooooo(xinfinity) much more livelier than mine.Although it's just a manga,I just wish that it would happen to me...even once is enough.The miracles that happen to them,it just makes you wish you were inside it.

Heh,miracles....

I've never faced any major problems in life before,and it pisses me off sometimes.I don't really know why.I should be happy that I don't have to experience any grief or sorrow but I won't get to experience happiness either.Meh,still,I'm pissed.I'm just greedy like that I guess.

So I'm gonna quote something from the manga I read.

"The relationships you build in high school will be the relationships you carry with you for the rest of your lives,"

Heh,I don't think I can ever forget all the relationships I've had in my crazy school...
Sigh...

Man,here I am,reminiscing already.I still have a year left in high school,so I'm gonna make it the freaking best year ever,somehow.

But it's just sad knowing that...someday,I'll have to say goodbye to these people.The people that have made me who I am today.I know,we'll meet new people as we go on...but still...
For that moment...that moment in time.Where we have to say goodbye to move on with our life,whether it's college or form 6,I just can't imagine myself doing it.I might even cry on that day...sigh.Do you guys believe in goodbyes?I don't want to though.I just wish everything was eternal sometimes.But..this is how god has made it,and he's cool that way!
I won't say goodbye on that day,I'll just say...see ya!
Heh.

Thank you,everyone.All those of you......that made my life whole.Without you all,I don't really know where I would be right now,heh.Every last one of you......thanks.

And sorry if I got you all emotional too,I didn't mean to.I just wanted to express myself.I felt like I was going to explode with these feelings if I didn't write them down.

So,I think that's about it for now.......the emotional moment.Or whatever you call it,lawl.
I'm gonna try my best....to cherish what I have had,what I have,and what I will have. =]

Oh yeah,on a less-emotional-note,after the exams,I'm probably gonna start a huge novel I've been planning for a while now.Assuming I stop being lazy of course.(yeah,right)
And i've always wanted to...well,add characters in my stories that resemble people I know of in real life.I think of it as a way to express my gratitude.

So,if anyone of you wants in,just tell me,kay?I'll try my best to make you look pretty and cool!
(Even though,i'm not any of those ;_; )Hope you guys like what I have planned.

Alright,I better end it here.I have to go to bed,sigh.
There's only a few days left before the final exams,and I'm not even close to ready yet. ;_;
I've wasted the past two days doing nothing,sigh.I need to get back on track.

Alright then,it's on.I'm throwing down the gauntlet.Let's do thissssssssssss.

(You'll probably think i'm cheesy and lame after reading this,but that's just the way I am,I guess.Heh.Sorry,i'm just not cool material.)

Wish me luck!And I wish all of you the best too,wishing you all will have a great life,meet great people and most importantly............

...Great memories!

Ja mata ne,
Zu Wen

"We're not here to die,we're here to make memories.Memories that we will never regret having,
no matter how happy or sad they are,"
- Me(unless someone already made up a quote like that,then..sorry D: )

My Tribute

Independence....
Being free....
The spirit of Merdeka...
This is my tribute.

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It's that day of the year again.The day of freedom.No,I'm not a serial killer confined in a
prison in the middle of nowhere.It's my country's independence day,and i'm returning home to
the place I always have and will love.


I hate the journey home.It's so long and arduous what with babies crying everywhere and weird
strangers sitting next to you.Sigh,well,no pain no gain.
I looked out the window of the plane just to pass some time.
It was a lovely day,with our friend Cerulean painting the skies wonderfully and the clouds
dancing around.I looked down and saw the usual sight;Houses the size of an ant...majestic
buildings that don't look so majestic from here.Ah yes,what a perfect day.Nothing could go
wro-

"AHHHH!!"
What the heck was that?!
Like everyone else on the plane,I turned my head to see a pregnant woman screaming in
agonizing pain.Yep,you guessed it,she's going to give birth.Stewards and stewardesses rushed
to aid her.But this was beyond their capabilities.They weren't Superman.Hell,I don't think
even Superman could handle this.

"Is there a doctor on the plane?!?!,"one of the stewardess shouted,and she's kinda cute.

.....
What the hell am I thinking at a time like this?
With lightning quick reflexes,I unbuckled my seat belt and rushed to that area.

"Don't worry.I'm a professional,certified obstetrician.I want you all to stay clear of this
area.I need 2 assistants,"I said.God,I hate speaking all professional and stuff..it's so
hard.And why was this woman let on the plane in the first place?Damned people not doing their
jobs.

"I'll help,"shouted one of them.
"Me too,"said another.
"Okay,it's settled then.Let's get it started,"I bellowed.

Some time later...

"It's almost out ma'am,just a little bit more.Keep pushing!!Do it for the baby!!You can do
this!"I said,encouraging her.
"Push!!Push!!Push!!"

And then it happened.The plane rocked back and forth.
The head went back in.
"No!!!No,no,no,no,no!!"I screamed.

"I'm sorry about that ladies and gentlemen,there was a slight air turbulence.The flight will
resume as normal,"a voice from the intercom said.

"Gah,i'm sorry ma'am,you'll have to try again.You must do it.I'm really sorry,"I apologised.

The soon-to-be(or will she?) mother never gave up hope.She kept on pushing and pushing and
finally....

Cries of a baby could be heard.And not just any baby.The soft and innocent cries of an obviously strong,promising newborn
baby being born into this beautiful world and as far as I know,this country.(as the plane has
just crossed into the country.)

About 30 minutes pass by....

The mother is peacefully milking her baby by the airplane window,giving the baby a chance to
observe the beauty of what we call life(who knows what the baby calls it)below.It was a beautiful sight,a miracle you could
say.All this while,I have forgotten what it was like to help an infant into this world.
I have just been doing it because it was my job,not because of passion.But now I know better,the
birth of a newborn baby is something that I will never take for granted anymore.


I asked the husband of the woman(that's sitting next to her)something.

"Sir,why did you let your wife on the plane?You know she was going to give birth any
time soon.You could've killed your son,you know that?"I said,still in a calm tone,although
I'm furious inside.

"I'm sorry doctor...but I tried to stop her.I really did.But she kept insisting we went back
home.I had to pay so much money to get them to let my wife into the plane.I'm really
ashamed....but what could I do?My wife's a real hardheaded person,but that's what I love
about her,"the husband said.

"Why did she want to return here so badly?"I asked,though I can already guess the answer.

"She said it was because she wanted her baby to be born in the country she was born in.The
country she grew up in...the country she loves.She wanted her baby to smell the air and be
one with the nation,"he replied.

"...I see,"I said tersely.

It was just as I thought.This woman was really strong.I admire her.I wish I could be as
strong as her.Oh well....you can't have everything.I'm just glad to have helped her bring her
baby into this world.I have a feeling that little tyke will bring this country to greater
heights than ever before.

End-


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Well that's it.Sorry if it sucked..and i'm pretty sure it does.
I rushed writing the story as it was already around 11 p.m. when I started.That only gave me an hour to finish this >_>.

I wanted to write something else,and it was going to be really long,but as you all know,I'm a friggin' procrastinator.
I hate myself...again.
Anyways,you may be asking...what does this story have to do with merdeka?
Well...I guess nothing...I'm just trying to convey the message that I'm proud to be a Malaysian and always will be.And how beautiful life is.I'll write better on my next project...if I ever start. >_>

Well,goodbye and Happy Merdeka!!!!

Zu Wen

Birth is an experience that demonstrates that life is not merely function and utility, but
form and beauty. - Christopher Largen

All over again.

It's that time again,school holidays,woo-hoo.Then again,I have mixed feelings about it.It's not that I don't welcome school holidays,it's just that...it gets so boring and lonely sometimes.
I'm probably gonna wish I was in school by Monday.Call me a nerd or whatever,I don't care.
*Sigh* Not much to do during the holidays,probably just gonna laze around doing nothing of significance. I should probably do something productive like study for the finals,but being the lousy procrastinator I am,blegh,I'm probably gonna put it off.I hate myself sometimes...well,most of the time.

Anyways,I'm gonna talk about my random thought of the day!!! (God,I'm lame)
I was just thinking....isn't it funny how one decision,no matter how minuscule it is,will change your life forever? For example,a mother has two schools(let's just name them school A and school B)to decide from on where to send her son to study.

If the mother sent him to school A,he went on to becoming successful and earning millions of dollars.
However,if the mother sent him to school B,he ended up being a failure,drug addict,etc.

See what I mean?Well sure,it wasn't really a small decision,but you get what I mean.
Life has a funny way of toying with our lives.Sometimes I wish I could turn back time to see what would happen if I chose something else instead.But what's done is done.

Now don't get me wrong.I'm not one to particularly believe in fate,and I believe everything that happens after you made that decision is still up to you.Maybe our lives have been determined,maybe not.We may be tied together by invisible strings that can only be seen by fate,and "it" is pulling the strings,bringing people together and moving us forward.Haven't you ever felt like you were meant to meet with this person that's standing right in front of you?

Well,no matter how much I talk about it,we'll never know.I'm still gonna work hard to achieve what I want,just to be on the safe side. (HAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHALOLOLOLOLOLOLMAOLMAO)

Yeah,right.I'm probably the most laziest person you've ever and ever will see.

And oh yeah,I had a sudden urge to write something the other day,and I came up with something.It's only the intro though.

"She leaned over the railing.It felt warm under the bright glow of the evening sun,unlike her cold and desolate heart.For the first time in her life,she felt so useless,so violated,so....dumb.The look in her eyes showed one of sadness with a tint of anger.She stared into the abyss of life below,oblivious to her surroundings.She could end this once and for all.The first tear of the day appeared from her crestfallen eyes.She knew more was to come.As she started blankly below,the sky above her started to fold its curtain of clouds,bringing in its next performance."

What do you think?I don't know if I should continue or to just leave it at that,hrmm.....

That's it,see ya in my next post.

Zu Wen

Liek omgwtfbbq,IM BLOGGING?!?!

Yeah,that's right.No,you're not hallucinating from drinking alcohol or anything.I'm finally blogging.I used to hate blogs.I guess it was because everyone was doing it and I dunno,just thought it was a waste of time.But I realized,it's actually good to express yourself and show the world just who you are.

Hm,what do you think of the pic for my blog title?I found that picture while browsing the net.It's sooo cool.It's called midnight sun.It was taken by some guy named Josef Stuefer I think.It's a phenomenon that happens in the north if I'm not wrong.The sun remains visible even at midnight.Romantic eh?....That's what a normal person would say,but I don't believe in romance,blegh. Idk,I may just be bitter,who knows.

Well,that's all for now,till the next time.

Your friendly neighbourhood giant (LOL),
Zu Wen