.................What?

Bleh,guess i'm resorting to this to temporarily take my boredom away.I'm soooooooooooo boreeeed.Like srsly....if i don't find something to occupy my time by the time the exams are over,i'm probably gonna climb up KLCC and jump down or something. ...Hmm,that's not a bad idea....

......Anyway,I can't seem to study this year...well not like I could every other year,but....it's different this time...dunno how,it just is.It's like....I don't feel there's no purpose in taking these exams....even if I get 100 for everything...it just seems so pointless,sigh...
I guess it'll help in getting scholarships and what not,but still...i dunno...don't know how to describe it,lawl.Anyone feel the same as I do? I hope i'm not the only one.... >_>
Maybe it's because...I don't have a goal of any sort in life...so like,even if I got a scholarship to Harvard,it would be pointless I guess.Haaaaah,why's it so hard being a teenager.I miss my kindergarten days where all we had to worry about was who to annoy and bother the hell out of.Man,those were the days.
Oh well....this is the reality that I have to face,sigh.

Ah well...I guess i'm gonna go "try" to study physics
Try as in...falling asleep or getting distracted by somethinge else,lawl.
I'm probably not gonna do as well as I did in my mid-year exams...not that I did any good back then either LOL.Ahhhh,I need to get serious next year.
+Tries to imagine me being serious+
.......Not gonna happen.
Although,when I get serious...it's pretty scary...I think,I dunno.Can't remember the last time I was serious about something.Laid-back or lazy..you make the choice.

Well,that's about it I think.

Ja matta,

Your indecisive lazy giant.

The world before you.

Hey there,sorry I haven't posted in such a long time.Just didn't have the inspiration lately.Heh.But today,it just came to me like that.It's kinda funny,really.

Well,I don't really know how it happened,but I got hooked onto reading mangas online and watching anime too,lol >_>.I'm such a nerd,ne ka?But I dunno,these kind of things attract me.How these mangakas can portray the innocence and beauty of life like that.It's just...well,I dunno,it's indescribable with words.If only I could turn my feelings into a concrete form.It just touches a special spot in me ya know?

Call me emo or a nerd,doesn't really matter.Hell,i'm actually proud to be a nerd sometimes.
There's nothing to be ashamed of.You are who you are.Nothing's gonna change that,that's what I've realized these past two days.I don't really know why,but these past two days,I've come to realize a lot of things.I've learned to not take granted anything in life anymore,and every second of our life is precious.

In the past,everytime I do something wrong,I used to hate myself for being so useless and clumsy.I always hated myself for being so weak.

But now...I'm determined to try a new outlook on this.Instead of sulking about how weak I am.....I'm gonna just be determined to get even stronger and better,so I'll never have to regret doing the same mistake ever again.

Kinda funny what you can learn from the simplest of things.It's just so.....amazing.Life is just so......
Sigh...

The things that happen in the manga.New relationships are formed,they cry together,they laugh together.....the things they do.They are only highschool kids,like me,but I envy them.Their lives are soooooooo(xinfinity) much more livelier than mine.Although it's just a manga,I just wish that it would happen to me...even once is enough.The miracles that happen to them,it just makes you wish you were inside it.

Heh,miracles....

I've never faced any major problems in life before,and it pisses me off sometimes.I don't really know why.I should be happy that I don't have to experience any grief or sorrow but I won't get to experience happiness either.Meh,still,I'm pissed.I'm just greedy like that I guess.

So I'm gonna quote something from the manga I read.

"The relationships you build in high school will be the relationships you carry with you for the rest of your lives,"

Heh,I don't think I can ever forget all the relationships I've had in my crazy school...
Sigh...

Man,here I am,reminiscing already.I still have a year left in high school,so I'm gonna make it the freaking best year ever,somehow.

But it's just sad knowing that...someday,I'll have to say goodbye to these people.The people that have made me who I am today.I know,we'll meet new people as we go on...but still...
For that moment...that moment in time.Where we have to say goodbye to move on with our life,whether it's college or form 6,I just can't imagine myself doing it.I might even cry on that day...sigh.Do you guys believe in goodbyes?I don't want to though.I just wish everything was eternal sometimes.But..this is how god has made it,and he's cool that way!
I won't say goodbye on that day,I'll just say...see ya!
Heh.

Thank you,everyone.All those of you......that made my life whole.Without you all,I don't really know where I would be right now,heh.Every last one of you......thanks.

And sorry if I got you all emotional too,I didn't mean to.I just wanted to express myself.I felt like I was going to explode with these feelings if I didn't write them down.

So,I think that's about it for now.......the emotional moment.Or whatever you call it,lawl.
I'm gonna try my best....to cherish what I have had,what I have,and what I will have. =]

Oh yeah,on a less-emotional-note,after the exams,I'm probably gonna start a huge novel I've been planning for a while now.Assuming I stop being lazy of course.(yeah,right)
And i've always wanted to...well,add characters in my stories that resemble people I know of in real life.I think of it as a way to express my gratitude.

So,if anyone of you wants in,just tell me,kay?I'll try my best to make you look pretty and cool!
(Even though,i'm not any of those ;_; )Hope you guys like what I have planned.

Alright,I better end it here.I have to go to bed,sigh.
There's only a few days left before the final exams,and I'm not even close to ready yet. ;_;
I've wasted the past two days doing nothing,sigh.I need to get back on track.

Alright then,it's on.I'm throwing down the gauntlet.Let's do thissssssssssss.

(You'll probably think i'm cheesy and lame after reading this,but that's just the way I am,I guess.Heh.Sorry,i'm just not cool material.)

Wish me luck!And I wish all of you the best too,wishing you all will have a great life,meet great people and most importantly............

...Great memories!

Ja mata ne,
Zu Wen

"We're not here to die,we're here to make memories.Memories that we will never regret having,
no matter how happy or sad they are,"
- Me(unless someone already made up a quote like that,then..sorry D: )