Wake me up when September ends.

"Success is getting and achieving what you want. Happiness is wanting and being content with what you get,"

-Bernard Meltzer

Now if only I could apply that to my life.

Hmm

Don't you think falling in love,especially in an unrequited way, is cruel? Just like a crescendo of the ocean waves,where it starts off as nothing more than a mere tingle at your feet which then slowly builds up into an overwhelming tsunami. It hits you and sweeps you off your feet without a moment's notice,when your guard is at it's weakest.Before you know it,you've drifted off too deep into the ocean without any means of returning to shore. And when you're out there,all you can do is struggle to stay afloat,praying very hard for some sort of salvation to end your battle.

So the only thing left to do is to hope.To hope that maybe the ocean current pulls you back to where you started.But then again,wouldn't that mean that the same thing would happen all over again?

Don't mind me,just a random post.

Save me,plsandty

yeah yeah,I know I said i'd be reviving this blog LOL.One post a month is better than nothing right?

I guess I owe an update of some sort.

Well,life has been....I don't really know how to put it.It just feels like i'm constantly in some sort of limbo,stuck in the middle of nowhere.I don't know what is what anymore.Am I gettting there? Or have I just been running on the same spot all this while?

I've pretty much lost most of my drive to live.I got nothing much to look forward to anymore,putting up the same monotonous routine every single day,regretting and hating myself for the same thing over and over again. I just wish something could happen right now...something that could remind me again what it means to live.Right now,I feel like i'm living not because I want to,but because I have to -.-. Seriously,i'm no better than a dead corpse right now.

I don't even know what i'm saying anymore lol.

Someone save me.

CPR

Wake up dammit!

Pounding his chest and giving him a few more breaths,they were holding on to a faint hope that he would open his eyes.

We've been through so much together,so many things left unsaid,DON'T DIE ON ME!

Just then,as if God heard the plea,his eyes slowly fluttered.

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So,uhh yeah.This blog is officially revived(I think).

Hi

Oh yeah,I totally forgot

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! 

LOL

Being 18 days late is cool.

Driving down the open road as we hum a little melody

Drove a car for the first time ever today!It was fun haha.I mati enjin'ed at last 10 times though -.- That wasn't fun.Stupid clutch haha.I never knew driving could be so tiring,guess I should appreciate the people who fetch me more :P Can't wait to finally get my P! Just one more month!

Lesson of the day is:

NIKE'S WERE NOT MEANT FOR DRIVING MANUAL CARS.

As we march down this parade

Yeah,i'm 14 days late...so what? :P

Hmm,so it's 2009 already eh?

Honestly speaking,2008 has been pretty much a blur to me.I guess all that studying for SPM must've fried my brain.Even now,I'm still painstakingly trying to erase all the rubbish I've been taught throughout the 5 years of my high school life.Mitochondria!HCl!Newton's Third Law of Motion! Okay,i'll stop being a geek now.

I guess I'll remember 2008 as the year I stepped out from the confines of the same scenery I've been stuck with for the past approximately 1825 days of my life.I wouldn't say it is a joyous occasion,yet it leaves me with this weird feeling.The feeling of not waking up at 6 am,not standing on the fields every Monday morning with half-open eyes while singing our national anthem,not seeing the same old teachers that we're so familiar with,and of course not being with the people we used to always hang out with.It just feels..weird.

It's funny how I once wished that I could gradute from high school asap,but now that it's happened,how I'd give anything to bring it back.Ironic eh?But that's just life doing it's job.

If I were to compare going through high school life to something,I'd compare it to a seedling.We all started out as helpless,vulnerable,naïve(well,most us anyway) prone to the many obscurities of life.With a lil bit of sunshine and water(our family and teachers I guess),we start to sprout.The growth of our stem (No kids,this is not a bio experiment) signifying our appetite to reach for something higher,a goal for something big while our roots symbolize our effort in trying to anchor ourselves into these unfamiliar grounds,finding a place where we belong.

Spring comes along,and more seedlings start to sprout.You can see all sorts of seeds.Apples,durians,papayas,you name it.Each with its own unique distinctiveness.These seedlings start to help one another in getting through this whole cycle.

Then we start growing and growing,maturing as time goes by.

Leaves start to grow,flowers bloom and our effort bear fruits.

In the end,after braving countless harsh winters,enduring merciless disasters,we come out stronger than ever,ready to take on the world.

Ok,this post has been put off for wayyyyy too long,so I finished it off in a rush.Sorry if it doesn't make any sense hahaha.

So yeah,another year,another chapter closes.I'm not really excited about 2009,but oh well,we'll see what happens.I hope 09 will treat me nicely and bring a better year filled with boisterous moments and unforgettable memories =)

Goodbye high school,you shall be missed.

"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave
with the intention of arriving safely in an
attractive and well-preserved body, but rather
to skid in sideways, Champagne in one hand, 
strawberries in the other, body thoroughly 
used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO -
what a ride!" - unknown