Confusion is like going to a buffet,not knowing what to eat first.

I've been feeling rather confused and frustrated these few days.The worst part is I have no bloody idea why.Maybe it's cause my pile of homework is mounting higher and higher by the day,or maybe it's cause I have to hand in my moral project tomorrow,and I still have 2 tugasan harian and 2 kerja amal to finish up (yet I still have time to write this post >_>).But I dunno...last year was the same,and I didn't feel this bad.I seem to be rather bitter these few days.I curse for no apparent reason,and just get frustrated easily.Ohmygod,I think i'm PMS-ing. >_>

Well,whatever.It'll pass...I hope.

Now,for the emo part of the post =D

The Feelings You Left Behind

When you look at yourself,
You just can’t help but wonder,
Wonder about the feelings that were left behind.
The feelings that were never shown,
All bottled up inside.

The words that were never said,
Only made it worse,
The price that had to be paid,
With an empty purse.

The bliss that you could’ve felt,
The grieve that you should’ve felt,
The regret that has yet to come,
All feelings without within.

It was all just a fallacy,
Little pieces that didn’t make sense.

Looking into the sky,
You rendered it all,
Looking back to the path,
You take a step of it all.

Just a little something I came up with +evenwhenIhadmymoralprojecttodocough+
Hope it makes sense.I don't even know how I come up with these things.I'm just weird like that =D.

Okay,that's it.I really really really have got to get back to my project.

School Stinks,srsly.

Ahhhh,this sucks.It's 10.30 p.m. and I'm not even close to finishing my dumb Bio project -.-.I was pretty sure I was gonna start yesterday,but I guess that was shot down too.Procrastinating blowsss.I still have a moral project that has yet to be touched,and the deadline's at the end of the month.And to make matters worse,I have to revise all my Add maths,Chem,Physics crap.
Dammit.I feel like emoing now.Anyone wanna join me? D:

I really should stop making up excuses to not do my project,like what i'm doing right now >_>.Well,that's it.No emo post this time.Instead,have some beautiful fireworks =D.Recorded by me,during the countdown in 1 Utama last year.Magnific,no?



Boom!
P.S:Don't mind the voices in the background.Just some random crap.

The Dawn of A New Era

December 31 huh...Wow,just freaking wow.I just realized this year is already ending..just like that.I really hate this.I’ve always hated it when a year ends.I don’t really know why.I guess it’s because I’m not ready to enter a new year yet.I still want to revel in this year’s memories,before making new ones in the year to come.Tis year’s been a blast.No,that does not suffice to describe it.This has been one of the best,if not THE best,years of my life and I’m not kidding.It’s no exaggeration.I’d murder,maim and pillage to get another year like this,LOL.The memories of 2007 will forever be engraved in my heart,never to be lost to the tides of time.And it’s probably not just me,I’m sure a hell lot of us has thought the same.And now,before this year ends,I shall give my tribute to this beautiful year of 2007.

Tribute to 2007

A year comes,a year goes.We all see it.It may just be moving from one month to another,but it’s not as superficial as that.We all feel it.As that clock hand ticks towards a new day,a new year,the memories of the current year playback in our mind,just like a movie,telling a story.The happiness we indulged in,the sadness we met,the pain we had to endure,the disappointment from not getting our expectations met,We all fell,we all rised.In the end,it really does matter.All these feelings we have experienced,it’s just another part of life that everyone has to go through.No matter how insignificant,how trivial it seems,you get stronger,even if a little.You get stronger not just as a person,but as an entity in this ever so vast and challenging planet.You get the strength to carry on,and bring new miracles into your life.

As we move on,we meet new people,good and bad.We look into their eyes,we exchange greetings,maybe even contempt,but after a while,some may realize,every one of us is different,but the same.We may have different colors,different accents,different goals in life,but the one thing that is the same even if the sky were to fall,or World War III were to break out,is that we are all seeking for answers.The answers to our questions.
“You are always searching for answers to your questions.That is because you believe they mean something to you.
As long as you keep desiring answers,your life will remain a meaningful one.You are constantly renewing yourself by thinking and feeling things.” - Gaeus
I may have gotten that quote from a game,but it holds it’s meaning all the same.(There are actually some amazing quotes in games,rofl.)As long as you keep striving to find the answers,the strength to move on will be there.

There’s a saying that goes “true friends are like diamonds,precious and rare,”.What kind of bullshit is that…
No matter how rare or precious,you can still place a price on it.Diamonds get sold everyday don’t they? >_>
True friends are priceless,more priceless than the Mona Lisa painting,more priceless than a view of the sunset glistening in the background. .Friends are what help us get through this life,the rope that keeps us from falling off that ledge.
. I really can’t imagine a life alone,well I can actually...a life where you have to bear all the pain and burden only on your own two shoulders.No one to share that lovely ice cream with,no one to listen to you gripe,no one to listen to you talk about that hot guy or girl you saw today.As the year passes,we meet new friends,people that were once strangers.Some of them we least expect to be friends with.Life has a funny way of doing things,you never know who you’re gonna meet in life.People that were once enemies,may become your true friends.Strangers that you once thought were geeky and lame becoming your friends.It’s always fun to meet new people,to see the different sides of life,to share our experiences.And guess what,I just realized this recently,lol.

Each year in our life,is like a chapter in a story book,each page a day in our life.And you are the author that controls the pen.As the days,weeks and months go by,the pages start filling up.It fills up with your experiences,your emotions,your…memories.Each page holds a new surprise,it’s like reading a good thriller novel.We keep writing and writing,and one day,when it is complete,maybe we could read it once again,just because we can.

As the year of 2007 ends,a new chapter in our life begins to unfold.We have to keep writing until the end,till the last word,the last letter.(You don’t wanna be called a quitter do ya?)The name of the book?I dunno,you’re the one deciding.
Just keep writing…and flipping the pages and hope…for a happy ending =).

- End of Tribute


Well,that’s it.Hope you guys liked it and that it made sense and doesn't sound too cheesy >_>.I’m gonna miss 2007 a lot,but…to attain something new,is to let go of the old.So I’m gonna put my head up high,and enter a new year,with a wish that it will be as great,if not better than the year before.So before it ends,I would just like to say…

GOODBYE 2007,THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES AND…….
HELLOOOO 2008!

Huh?What?Christmas is here?

Well,it's that time of the year again.And while everyone is wishing everyone else a merry christmas and exchanging presents,I can't help but wonder....just what is Christmas really about?Some say it's to spend time with family and relatives,others say it's the about joy of giving,while there are those that enjoy Christmas just for the presents,heh.As for me?I have no idea.I don't know why,but every year,whenever Christmas comes,I just feel like it's any other day.I can't seem to get into the spirit of it.I feel like there's something missing.Oh well...more answers for me to seek.

Well,that's about it.Too lazy to write more >_>.
Was supposed to post this yesterday,but...well,yeah.

Merry Belated Christmas!!!!!!!









I know it's not that great,but hey,at least I tried.And don't mind the rubbed parts,I made mistakes and drew too hard.

And I seriously have got to start on the LLC review thing.I still miss camp,sigh.
Oh and,good luck to the Form 3's,haha.Don't worry too much about the PMR results.It's not like your whole life depends on it.Oddly enough,I can't remember what I felt the day before PMR results came out nor on the day itself,LOL.Man,i'm weird.
I feel like PMR was made just to make students go crazy.

Well,bye.

Quote: PMR sucks.

Part 2? Nah,not yet.

I said I'll write my review in the next post,but...I'm a freaking procrastinator,so...D: .I'm gonna write a kick ass long review,so don't worry.I'll describe the camp in the most omgwtfbbq way possible,I hope.Until now,I still miss it =/.

Anyway,did some blog stalking today.It's really amazing how much you can know someone from their blog.Maybe not everything,but it's still amazing.Everything you didn't know about them.I once didn't give a damn about blogs.Now i'm regretting that decision =/.Wished I found the wonders of blogs sooner.Regrets seem to be a part of my life,sigh.

I found this song today,and it's pretty awesome.I love it's lyrics.

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven




Heh,protecting someone...just how far would you go?I know I would break my limits,cause i'm a sucker for protecting things xD.I like to be the big meat shield,haha.

Oh and,that's not the original video.The original was kinda boring,so I put in a Final Fantasy VII Advent Children one.God,that movie rocked so hard.Even if you're not a fan of the FF series,you should watch it.Plus,Tifa is effing hot.Seriously.


Oh,and I'm also addicted to that song the two Taman Petaling girls sang.That was so cute xD.
It's called Shining Friends by 2r.

Little faith brightens a rainy day
Life is difficult; you can't go away
Don't hide yourselve in the corner
You have my place to stay

Sorrow is gonna say goodbye
Opens up you'll see the happy sunshine
Keep going on with your dream
Chasing tomorrow's sunrise
The spirit can never die

Sun will shine, my friend
Won't let you cry, my dear
Seeing you shed a tear
Make my world disappear
You'll never be alone in darkness

See my smile, my friend
We are with you, holding hands
You have got to believe, you are my destiny
We're meant to be your friends
That's what a friend should be



So...cherish your friends and stuff...yeah.It's what they always tell you,but most of us still take it for granted anyway,sigh.Human nature sucks sometimes.I could go on about human nature,but,I'd just keep going on and on connecting one thing to another lol,xD.So,i'll keep that for another post.I wish I could talk this much in real life.I'm always the quiet guy that doesn't stand out much =/.

Well,time to end this post.But first,a little picture I drew some time ago.Hope you guys like it.And comments are always nice.Might draw another soon.I'm still trying to draw faces of.
 people I meet in life,but it's really hard >< .Anyone wanna be my model? xD.
For free of course...cause im kedekut like that.I'm still an amateur at drawing and not good at shading...sigh.But I still love,love,love drawing.I dunno why,but I LOVE drawings and words.I'm lazy at doing it though =/.Well,tata.





If you meet a dead end,you don't take a detour...you bust it up with your hands. 8D
-Another lame quote by me.

Tai Kor